I'm Just a Working Girl

Bob Evans has become my new home. I get to work there all the time, so I can make lots of money. Its been busy, and people have been generous. Still its not been the most exciting Christmas break ever. At least I haven't had much of an opportunity to spend the money I've been earning.

Today I met with Kristen. We went out to eat some mexican food. Yum, yum. I also got my bride's maid dress. I'm excited to try it on, but am waiting for my mum to get home so I can show her. It was good getting to see Kristen, the next time I'll see her will probably be for her wedding. Its kind of strange to think of her as married, but she is excited and I know she's ready for it.

A Southern "Fried Fish" Vacation

We are down in Louisiana visiting family. We go every year at least once, and stay with my Grandmommy. Its been a good visit so far.

Tommrow is our big fish fry day, where we have any available relative come by and my Grandmommy cookes lots of fish. Then we all stuff ourselves and sit around and visit. Its nice to visit with everyone, but I think I'm the only person who doesn't like fried fish. I don't like fried food in general, 90% of the time I don't even like french fries and everyone likes those. I guess I'm just strange, the odd kid who doesn't fit in with the rest of the family, at least when it comes to eating fish. I still eat it though. No way I'd risk offending my Grandmommy and telling her that fish is not something I enjoy. Plus if get enough other things on my plate and jsut eat a piece or two really slow, then quickly mention that I need to save room for dessert it works out fine. :) Shh.... don't tell.

There once was a car

Semi-truck tire prints

This was the front

Crash

Well, welcome to the blog of the "new and improved" Tanya. It's taken quite a bit to get me here. I've always been a rather blessed person with great opportunities, and an ability to avoid trouble. God's saved me on more than one occasion and I've taken it rather lightly.

That is changing now. Yesterday, I could have died. Yesterday my car hit a semi-trailor. Yesterday, I totalled my car. Yesterday, I walked away from the accident. I don't know why God chose to save me, but he did. Now I have to face the consequences of my actions. I have no car, which is a big deal for me. I've very independant. I like to be the one driving. I'll have to spend money that was yes set aside for a car, but not yet. Instead of taking my time and finding what I really want for the best possible deal, I'll have to get whats avialable. I don't know how I'm going to get to work or if my parents will even let me stay at home.

What will I do? The only thing I can. TRUST in God, wholeheartedly, not just on the surface level, but with all I have.

College Life

Right now I'm sitting in a coffee shop at midnight working on homework, listening to the odd combination of music they are playing. I'm drinking a caffe latte with two good friends. This is what college is all about. It's not the homework that I'm doing that I will remember in 10 years, its the fun I'm having with my friends. Its the way we pause, to make a random comment about our homework. The way that Hannah mouths the words she is writing as she writes them makes me smile. The way that Daniel stops and stares at his laptop for a moment or two before beginning to go back to work, is funny. I wonder whats going on in his brain. How about the way I sit here over-anaylizing this. I want to just enjoy the moment. I have to write about it, I don't want to forget. My life is so influenced by these people, they make me who I am, or who I will be. In highschool this is what I thought college was really about. Now that I'm here its almost surreal. It's sad to think that in only 4 months this will be over. I don't want to grow up. I want to stay at this point in life forever.

Touring

So the other day I was giving a tour to two baseball players from Iowa - the land of nothing. It was a fun tour, although they didn't hear about as much of the school as i usually talk about. I don't think they minded. In fact they stayed the whole day and I saw them again at dinner. Afterwards one of the guys asked for my e-mail. :)
Then he actually IMed me. How cool is that. It never happens! Although he lives in another state so that may be why. Oh well, we'll see what happens. We've been chatting for a really long time tonight. We have a lot in common. Hopefully he'll come to MoBap and I can get the opportunity to know him in person.

Blah, blah, blah

I'm in class. We had test. It was boring. Okay enough of the three word sentences. I got back to school late last night, when I walked into my room who was there go greet me? James Dean and Elvis. They startled me, then I set my stuff down and turned around, once again I was greeted by a dead celebrity. Marilyn Monroe was in front of the closet. My roommate makes me laugh.

I fell on Elvis today as I was getting out of bed. If someone had to catch me at least it was someone cool ;)

Today we hung out most of the day, its cool. I'm just sad that now after living together most of the semester we're finally becoming friends. I still don't know where I'm going to live next semster. It would be sad to leave my roommmate now that we're getting to be friends.

Thanks

Thanksgiving was today. It was really nice, my whole family was together. We haven't been for a couple weeks with me at school. I didn't do any of the homework I had intended to start on, but thats okay. I'll do it tommrow. I love my family. I'm finally mostly an adult in their book. Now my parents offer me coffee. Thats how I know I'm grown up. In a family that doesn't drink,coming of age happens in other ways.

Off to bed now, I've fallen into the trap that is "Day After Thanksgiving Sales", which means a 5 am wake up.

Whateva

Thats how I feel about life right now. Whateva. I'm in a discontent, pessimitic mood. I don't know what I'm doing wrong with this person, sometimes its okay to hang out with me, other times--??? Am I pushing too much or trying to hard? I don't want to come across as desperate, because I'm not. Why is it then that when I can't find a boyfriend? I don't ask for much, espicially when I compare myself to other girls that I see guys dating. Girls that demand everything and give nothing in return. Girls that treat their boyfriends like dirt, yet the dumb boy stays with her.

I feel like doing something. I spent all weekend at my parents house with the dog. I love my poodle pup, but tonight I want to do something. Its almost Thanksgiving break where I'll not have so much free time or freedom for that matter, so I want to take advantage of the fact that I do now. Yet what am I doing? Sitting in my dorm room writing my blog, and whining to my WV boy. At least he talks to me and listens. Why does he have to live so far away? I should quit complaing. The other night one of my freinds called and talked about his problems for an hour. While I want to be a good friend, sometimes I just don't know feel like listening. There is nothing I can do to help him. I don't know, I really do care. Its probably just the pesimisism kicking in tonight.

Homecoming Hottie

Homecoming--such magical word

I never got to experience it in Highschool. It was today, well part of it. They picked the King and Queen in chapel. I was on the court. Out of all the seniors at MoBap I was one of three to get picked. It was so awesome. I felt liked and popular for once, so often I feel like the girl who doesn't quite fit in, but if I was picked for Homecoming at least some people have to like me.
I decided that I'm going to wear my sash for the rest of the day just because I like it. Who cares if people think I'm dumb. I want to enjoy my life and have fun. Now if only I had a crown, but thats okay Krystal is a nice girl. Plus, she's an RA so I can see why she won.
Adam was one of the senior guys. I got to stand with him which was fun. Its more fun to share things with people you know, Rebecca was one of the girls. Saturday we get to wear our sashes to the Basketball game. I can't wait.

Group Shots

This is the whole 2004 Court


Kissing the queen

Pretending

If I were the queen..... 


Amanda would be good on the court.

Media Darling

Today I got to get my picture taken. :) :) :) It was fun. The fact that I blog is getting noted in print. How cool is that?
Today we went down to Show Me St. Louis, we were on TV. I like tv. We got to dress up in our pretty musical clothes. I love my dress.
Today Tanya was on the ballot for Homecoming. That is so cool. It made me happy, but Rebecca was on it too, so I think she could beat me. We'll see, I could be suprised.

Voting

Its voting day. I voted for president, for the first time ever. I didn't get to last time, and I was so disappointed. Today there was another election also. It was "nominate Tanya for homecoming" day. I think that I got more than 30 nominations. I hope that will be enough to get me on the ballot on Tuesday. Its probably silly of me to want to win the popularity contest known as Homecoming but I do. Wish me luck.

Sitting Down

I wish I had time to just chill. There is so much stuff like homework that I need to do. I don't have time for it. The little time I do have I'm so tired and my brain feels like mush. Everything is distracting me. I can't make myself do it. I just get distracted by anything and everything. Including this blog right now.

Tommrow is going to be so hectic. Just like today and yesterday and the day before. The musical is taking over my life. I've spent more time with that this week then I have in class, and thats the real reason I'm even going to school.

Busy

For someone who spent the last week doing nothing, this week it feels like I have so much to do. Yesterday I worked all day long. I went to cheerleading practice so I had to get up early. Then I had Cracker Barrel work. Then I went to the Cardinals game. It was fun, but I had to work. It just made for such a long day. About 11:30 my brain turned off, and I was toally on auto-drive.

Friday I get to start as an ambassador. I'm excited. I was supposed to do this at the beginning of the semester, but for some reason it just wasn't happening. Now if only I can remember where to start when giving the tour. I'll survive.

Sick

I have the flu. At least I think thats what it is. I woke up Monday morning feeling really sore and with a horrible headache, and a sore throat. Fortunately I didn't have any classes so I spent most of the day in bed. I had to go to musical practice though. I really hoped that I would get sent home because I know its happened for other people before, but no such luck. I had to stay for the whole thing. We got to try on our costumes which was prolly the highlight of the day. I wish I would have skipped practice, but I might have to next week so I didn't want to do it now. Cracker Barrel has been called so for once I get a day off.

Saturday night I went over to a friend's house. Its funny people see me as "reader girl" (because I get picked to read the case studies in Buss. Ethics). There is so much more to my personality than that, but its all people know. I'm really outgoing with my friends, but not so much with people I don't know.

Anyways being in bed the past two days has not given me much interesting things to write about. So ciao.

Why'd you have make things so complicated?

Sometimes I get so frustrated with people. Mainly guys who take you out and don't call, or who visit home for the weekend and don't call you when they get back. Or how bout those that just don't call. I'm really easy going, but it frustrates me when people don't talk to me. Is it to much to ask that someone who has an interest in me (and I in them) talk to me? That's a big part of the reason why I like senior guy. I'm understanding when I know whats going on, but if I don't know, it really bothers me and all my friends have to hear me whine.

Maybe its just my mood lately. I'm bored with everything. I don't even know why. I guess its just my mid-semester slump. Maybe if the sun comes out I will be happy, surely its a vitamin d deficiency. Yesterday I was really bummed out too. I had a table whose bill was $99.55. Guess how much they left me for a tip $0, nada, nothing. It made me mad and sad:(

I had a date!

I had a date! A real dinner date. Not a I like you so let's just start hanging out type thing. It was so exciting. I think one of my friends went crazy because someone ( aka me ) mentioned it so many times. I was late getting out of musical practice, so he was already here when I arrived. I made him wait a few more minutes so that I could change clothes, because I had picked out a really cute outfit earlier.

He was so nice and opened all the doors for me. Guys don't do that much anymore. We then went out to eat and talked. He talked about himself but let me talk too. It was good conversation ( unlike with some people. ) After dinner we went out for coffee, because there is NOTHING to do in St. Louis at night. I had a really good time with him. There was no "good night kiss" he just hugged me, which was really sweet. I think stuff like that is rushed much of the time. Then you get all attached and there is no substance to the relationship. I hope he askes me out again. He is a really intriging person. He's from England so he sees some things from a different perspective. Not to mention his accent is really fun to listen to. He says his family told him he talks like an American now. It's funny because he really doesn't.

Sticky Tack & Ice Block Sledding

I did the funnest thing the other night. I went sledding with no snow. What you do is you wait until its a rainy day. Then when the ground is good and muddy you go and find a big hill and slide down on ice. Half of the fun came from watching other people tumble down the hill. Of course the guys had to start being crazy and trying to climb on eachother's shoulders while doing this. I got muddy and wet and cold, but it was a really good time.

So I was over in one of my friend's room and she decided that she wanted to hang up her posters that have been in a box all semester long. There was one problem though. No Sticky Tack. Thankfully she has an RA that is a super-good hall decorator/picture-sticker-upper. So we went around and collected some of the tacky stuff and she hung up her posters. Now let me just say that when we borrowed the sticky tack we didn't take down decorations. We just took from the sides of the pictures, because there were at least 6 globs on each.

Anyways I get back to school today and on my door is a note to call when I get it. It appears that her RA noticed that some of her decorations were no longer stuck to the wall in 12 seperate places. They had a note on their board asking for whoever took it to put it back. Isn't that crazy?

So now that everyone knows...

I just love how I get myself into things. I just have to open my mouth sometimes. Now lots of people got to know what most of my close friends just know. At least I'm smart enough not to use names. Although if anyone knows me they can guess. It really doens't matter though. I'm a rather open person. That is why I allowed my whole web design class to read my wonderful blog. At least I now have an audience. That makes me happy. :)

Who cares about the day?

I'm home! I made it back from Chi Town, where I got to spend a week visiting with my family. I saw my Great-grandpa. He was born in 1907 and has lived a wonderfully interesting life. He's done everything under the son. When it comes to relatives, he's my favorite.

I wasn't gone very long, but it feels like I was. Not that much has changed, its just things happened and I missed them. I like to be a part of everything. I'm excited. I'll hopefully see a boy that I am really interested in tonight. There is definite potential there. He had some things to think about though, hopefully while I was gone he did that and has reached some kind of conclusion.

Day Whatever

So yah I can't write here everyday I just plain old don't have the time. But thats okay. Sure it is. I'm just way busy and slightly overloaded. This semester I just want to have fun and not have homework. Its my last year, I'm doing everything that I never had and will regret not.

Now on to the more interesting part of my life-- My Love Life
So this year I had a guy that I kinda liked, but he was a freshman and I'm a senior so you know its not going to work out. We had fun hanging out an stuff though a long-term relationship would never work. Anyways we talked about that tonight, it wasn't fun, but I'm glad its done. Now I can date someone else that is a senior. He's cool. Now we'll have to see if there is any potential for the long term. I want to meet someone who I can take home to Mom and Dad, a guy who has husband potential. I guess I'll find out in time.

Day One

So I decided I'd join the internet craze and make a blog. That and I want to be as cool as Rebecca. I've been meaning to do this for a while, but now I am. Its just another thing to add to my crazy life.

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Oreo Stacking

this is me at Vacation Bible School

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