Left without saying Goodbye

Freshman boy is gone. He left this morning. There was no "hey I decided to leave school early." No goodbye phone call. No goodbye note. His friends told me. I even saw him last night. He didn't say a word to me about it. I left the lobby for a bit and when I came back he was gone, which wasn't a big deal. I didn't know I wouldn't get to see him again. I guess I didn't matter to him at all. I was even somewhat upset with him last night because I heard that he said "he only called me when he was desperate and bored". Now I see that it must have been true. We've been friends since welcome weekend. I thought we were pretty close. I even used to talk to his mom one the phone sometimes. He ment so much more to me than I ever let on, and now what am I supposed to do?

Waitor Boy

So I haven't talked about waiter boy at all yet. I met him at the rehersal dinner of Kristen's wedding. He was waiting on us and all us girls thought he was gorgeous. I flirted a little and thought about giving him my number (something that I've NEVER done before). I wouldnt' have actually done it, but one of the other girls told me I should. So I wrote it on a sugar packet and gave it to him when we were leaving. He said that he was going to ask me for it anyways. That was smooth of him, but he really was serious.

So he doesn't call until the next weekend when my phone is in roaming because of vacation. I get the message, but dont call him back. He then calls again after a couple of days. I decide that I'm going to text message him, because I don't want him to think that I wasn't interested. So we go back and forth until I get back home.

When I finally get to talk to him on the phone, I find out that he is really cool. He was a communucation major who graduated from Missou. (no more freshmen!) He's smart and has a sence of humor. When he came to pick me up on our coffee date we met in the lobby. Of course many of my friends just happened to be there. Nici came into my room before I went out and was like "a really hot guy just walked in. is that who you're going out with?" Later he teased me because almost everyone asked him if he was there to meet me.

He even walks in puddles. We were walking down the street the side that I was on had a lot of little puddles, he made me switch him spots so I wouldn't have to walk through them. I didn't know guys did that kind of thing anymore. It made me feel really special. I hope that I get to see a lot more of him.

Security Spoof, Here I Come!

Today is the day.It has finally arrived. I get to make a video that makes fun of our security guards. I'm afriad. This is a big project to be done by me. I hope everyone comes through. I'm nervous, which doesn't happen very often. I just am not sure that I can get it done. What if I fail and it turns out horrible? I HAVE to finish it by Friday. That gives me almost no time to edit. AAAHHHH!!!! At least the weather is good, so long as nothing changes and it doesn't begin to rain. If it rains this afternoon, I think I might cry. My grade depends on this and I like to get "A"s. Pray for me.

Spring Break

Spring break is about to start! It will be nice, I need a break from getting new assignments, so I can get caught up on the old ones. I plan on doing much homework on the beach.

I hate knowing things that I'm not supposed to. I wish that we didn't have so many secrets.

I graduate in 7 weeks. One of those weeks is spring break so really its just like 6. What am I going to do? I haven't started job hunting yet because I dont have a car.

Kristen's Wedding

Kristen's married!!!
The wedding was so much fun. She's a lucky girl. Friday night was the rehersal, it was cool getting to meet all the rest of the people in the Wedding party. We then went out to Wilikers in St. Charles and were waited on by the hottest waiters I've ever seen.

Then it was off to the Landing for the Bachorlette party! We didn't go clubbing, Marissa had made a t-shirt for Kristen with several different "things she had to do before she could get married". It was really funny. Some of her things were to get an older guy's phone number, find people to sing the Fresh Prince of Belair song with her. The rest of us were given cards with certain people we had to find, then do something about it. One I had was "guy you would never take home to your parents" I was then giving the option of asking him a cheezy pick-up line or something else. It was great fun!!

The day of the wedding all of us girls took hours getting ready. We looked hot! Then we went to the chruch and did more primping, and the photographer took pictures. My cameral got dropped so I all the clear pictures are pre-wedding, but thats okay. Hopefully, I can get it fixed.

It was a good ceremony and Kristen and Jeff had their first kiss. It was so sweet. I wish that my first kiss was on my wedding day (at least sometimes), but it was sweet. They are so happy!

Guilt

Have you ever done someething bad? Something that would be bad if others knew? but if you told them it wouldn't be believed. and it wasn't entirely your fault? I hate it i hate me, i hate circumstance!!!