Adjustments

So the first two weeks home with my new daughter were pretty easy. She sleeps a lot of the time and when she was awake, she was typically happy. I would talk to her and tell her about our family and she would look into my face and be cute. However, she has started being fussy whenever she is awake. This frustrates me. I feel like a bad parent for hoping my child stays asleep all day, just so I don't have to deal with the unhappiness. I realize its just a stage and that she will probably grow out of it soon, but its not fun in the moment.

The adjustment to being at home isn't too hard. I still think about work sometimes. I e-mailed my boss yesterday to wish her a Happy Boss' day and reminded my teammates about it, since I'm the one who typically took care of that type of thing. At the same time, I don't really miss having to get up early to leave the house. Besides I can't get my hair to not be a mess lately and I'm leaking everywhere! I can only manage to look presentable for a short time and I can't imagine not being with my baby all day (even when she is crying).

We visited the doctor yesterday. She has gained 10 oz and grew 1 1/2 inches in two weeks. That's crazy! She is growing so fast!

Day One

I had a daughter almost two weeks ago. My life has changed so much. We wanted a child and planned for this baby a few years back. Matt and I figured out what our pre-children goals were and made a plan to reach them. When the time was right, we started trying and we were very blessed in that it didn't take long for me to become pregnant. I was fortunate to have an easy pregnancy. Yes, I did have morning sickness, I got tired much more easily and towards the end, Matt had to help tie my shoes, but overall I had it pretty good.

We decided to do a homebirth, which was great, but that's a story for another day.

Today is my first day home alone with the baby while Matt's at work. Its kind of cool, kind of scary, since this is my new normal. I'm sort of excited and slightly apprehensive. Will I get board? Can I finally keep the house clean? Am I going to go crazy craving adult interaction? Time will tell, but today is the day that our adventure begins.

Happy Valentine's Day

Celebrity

Today I happened to be in the neighborhood of the restaurant where I used to work. I was there for over 8 years starting in high school and ending after I was married and working full time at another job. Its been at least a year since I last stopped by the restaurant, but there were still many of the same servers.

Everyone is always so nice and happy to see you when you go back and visit. There were a few new employees and when one of them started to greet me like a customer, one of my old co-works was like, "that's Tanya, she used to work here, she's cool." Its so fun to reminisce and see pictures of everyone's children that have grown a foot, since I saw them last.

My old boss even bought me breakfast, which was really nice. I need to go back more often, its nice to be a celebrity.

100 Times

There are some songs that are so amazing. They touch you on an emotional level and you can listen to them 50 times in a row and you just have to hit "play" one more time.


Coldplay does a great job with the original, but I like this cover. The harmonies send shivers down my spine.


There are so many covers of this Lenard Cohn song, but Jeff Buckley's version is classic to me.

So what are your favorites? The songs you just can't get enough of hearing.