Hail

I'm so sad. Jet Black the Mystery Car was just pelted with hail. I was at work so I had a good view of the hail falling on it. It was so bad, because I watched it happen and there was nothing that I could do about it. :(

Shouldn't it be easy?

Sometimes I wish that things were easier. It seems like everytime things are good in my relationship something happens to mess it up. We work through stuff, so thats a good sign. I do consider it worth it, but sometimes I'm afraid to ask a question for fear it might lead to this horrible feeling that I get when he has to think things over. That is not healthy. I shouldn't be afraid to ask questions. I just have to trust God that if its his will things will work out.

I went to school for this?

I am so very bored. I'm at work. I have a project I call "Copy, Paste, Click, Click" or cpcc. That is all I'm doing. Its supposedly sending out checks to people with inactive accounts. I could train my 2nd grade sister to do this. I miss doing things that took thought. They only way I keep a hold on my sanity is that I listen to books or music on my headphones. I need a better job. As of today I've worked as a temp long enough where I am eligible to apply for a permanent job within the company. Great. Except I don't like job descriptions. They don't really tell you what you will be doing. I can't do another cpcc job. I'll die.

We talked.

We talked. I didn't like what he said very much, but we're still together. The gist of things is this: I want to get married, not next month or anything, but sometime in the semi-near future. Gg wants to go to school first and be able to support a family before he settles down. Considering he hasn't started going to school yet that could be a long wait for me.

I don't want to break up, but neither am I keen on being single forever. While 4 or 5 years isn't forever its a significant amount of time. I have this idea where, if a couple dates for more than a year and has not good reason to wait to get married; they probably shouldn't. I realize that there can be other circumstances, but I have never understood people who date for like 6 years.

I'm not going to say he is "the one", but I really love him. We get along together really well. He fits many of the qualities I would want in a spouse list. Maybe if I were younger I would understand his desire to wait more. I don't see the need. I could help him with college. I already had the experience. How could try to change his mind or deny it of him? Still. I wish he'd think through all his options. He could still get a degree without going to a 4 year school.

He says he is afriad I'm wasting my time being with him. I am not. I consider it time well spent. He makes me happy.

I want to talk to you in person

Those are never words a girl wants to hear. Rarely is something like that good news. I am so curious as to what this talk is about. Hopefully it is something that is not a big deal. I love gg so much. I'd hate to have done something that would mess up our relationship. I really really want things to work out. I guess I'll find out tommrow night what its about and until then I'll have to be the trusting girlfriend and hope that nothing is wrong.