Thanksgiving was today. It was really nice, my whole family was together. We haven't been for a couple weeks with me at school. I didn't do any of the homework I had intended to start on, but thats okay. I'll do it tommrow. I love my family. I'm finally mostly an adult in their book. Now my parents offer me coffee. Thats how I know I'm grown up. In a family that doesn't drink,coming of age happens in other ways.
Off to bed now, I've fallen into the trap that is "Day After Thanksgiving Sales", which means a 5 am wake up.
November 25, 2004
November 22, 2004
Whateva
Thats how I feel about life right now. Whateva. I'm in a discontent, pessimitic mood. I don't know what I'm doing wrong with this person, sometimes its okay to hang out with me, other times--??? Am I pushing too much or trying to hard? I don't want to come across as desperate, because I'm not. Why is it then that when I can't find a boyfriend? I don't ask for much, espicially when I compare myself to other girls that I see guys dating. Girls that demand everything and give nothing in return. Girls that treat their boyfriends like dirt, yet the dumb boy stays with her.
I feel like doing something. I spent all weekend at my parents house with the dog. I love my poodle pup, but tonight I want to do something. Its almost Thanksgiving break where I'll not have so much free time or freedom for that matter, so I want to take advantage of the fact that I do now. Yet what am I doing? Sitting in my dorm room writing my blog, and whining to my WV boy. At least he talks to me and listens. Why does he have to live so far away? I should quit complaing. The other night one of my freinds called and talked about his problems for an hour. While I want to be a good friend, sometimes I just don't know feel like listening. There is nothing I can do to help him. I don't know, I really do care. Its probably just the pesimisism kicking in tonight.
I feel like doing something. I spent all weekend at my parents house with the dog. I love my poodle pup, but tonight I want to do something. Its almost Thanksgiving break where I'll not have so much free time or freedom for that matter, so I want to take advantage of the fact that I do now. Yet what am I doing? Sitting in my dorm room writing my blog, and whining to my WV boy. At least he talks to me and listens. Why does he have to live so far away? I should quit complaing. The other night one of my freinds called and talked about his problems for an hour. While I want to be a good friend, sometimes I just don't know feel like listening. There is nothing I can do to help him. I don't know, I really do care. Its probably just the pesimisism kicking in tonight.
November 10, 2004
Homecoming Hottie
Homecoming--such magical word
I never got to experience it in Highschool. It was today, well part of it. They picked the King and Queen in chapel. I was on the court. Out of all the seniors at MoBap I was one of three to get picked. It was so awesome. I felt liked and popular for once, so often I feel like the girl who doesn't quite fit in, but if I was picked for Homecoming at least some people have to like me.
I decided that I'm going to wear my sash for the rest of the day just because I like it. Who cares if people think I'm dumb. I want to enjoy my life and have fun. Now if only I had a crown, but thats okay Krystal is a nice girl. Plus, she's an RA so I can see why she won.
Adam was one of the senior guys. I got to stand with him which was fun. Its more fun to share things with people you know, Rebecca was one of the girls. Saturday we get to wear our sashes to the Basketball game. I can't wait.
I never got to experience it in Highschool. It was today, well part of it. They picked the King and Queen in chapel. I was on the court. Out of all the seniors at MoBap I was one of three to get picked. It was so awesome. I felt liked and popular for once, so often I feel like the girl who doesn't quite fit in, but if I was picked for Homecoming at least some people have to like me.
I decided that I'm going to wear my sash for the rest of the day just because I like it. Who cares if people think I'm dumb. I want to enjoy my life and have fun. Now if only I had a crown, but thats okay Krystal is a nice girl. Plus, she's an RA so I can see why she won.
Adam was one of the senior guys. I got to stand with him which was fun. Its more fun to share things with people you know, Rebecca was one of the girls. Saturday we get to wear our sashes to the Basketball game. I can't wait.
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